Back in the day...

I'm here washing dishes and then I started thinking about last night, drinking with my husband and playing cards 21, 31, and speed. I started to remember when I was living at my parents and just thinking about when I used to wait until Friday to go drink with my cousin right next door, she lives with my grandma. I was stick on having fun and having a few drinks with my cousin. We would talk about anything and call up people to try inviting them over to drink more and just hang out. If only I wish to have one more night like that. I miss it sometimes, its cool to get to drink again. Its different through, I'm married with a beautiful baby, I can't get wasted too much because she might wake up during the night. Anyway, I can only hope that my cousin and her husband Johnny could come over and drink at our apartment, won't be at grandma's kitchen anymore. All I wish is to have that first drink again along with Valerie, Crystal(cousin), Johnny, and others.

Work at home or be bored with my baby

I really don't have anything going for me right now. I'm looking towards to the whole working at home. My daughter is already four months old, and the way day care is going I really can't afford to spend that much of money. I looking at ChaCha today I was telling my husband about it and we decided to go ahead to apply. I did. I failed the tests, I think so I don't know which part I'm thinking the typing part killing my chances to become a guide. I thought it was really cool though too. I want a job again, but this time it has to be at home of course. I hope something good happens. No, I want something great to happen to me. I want to be able to have money to shop around for new clothes, the baby is going to grow up yet she still wears her newborn clothes. I was looking at the call operators too today, and I wish we has a darn home phone line here. I don't know when we'll get it but I'm hoping soon. Even if I have to beg my husband about it. I think we will probably get that T-Mobile @ Home phone thing. I really need a phone, and when I do I'm going to apply for West or somewhere. Surveys are all the same questions over and over again, its getting boring I need something that's so different and cool. I hate not able to work because I have the baby to think about and few days every week I babysit which I'm going to do tomorrow it never ends. I don't even get paid but I guess that what friends are for. Anyway, I don't know why I tell them yes -- oh wait maybe it's because we don't live too far away and I'm here at home with my baby and they think it's cool for me to take care of his and her child that is older than mine. I swear sometimes I just can't take it. It tells me to wait on having another baby. I just sit and cry its terrible. My baby starts crying and when I'm attend him, but I attend to her and he starts crying. Never ending cycle.